Tired.

Tired of trying to make things work because it never does.

Thinking.

Thinking it may be time to start a new job. I want to get a taste of owning a business, and this is a great way to start. It's in the works...

Secret.

I can't tell you about my new man because it's a secret. I can't jinx myself with telling you about it.

Jealousy

I'm jealous that everyone else gets to graduate in May and I'm stuck here (in undergrad) for an extra year. Especially since I know that as soon as I graduate, I'll be working full-time because my job is pretty much set for me. It's so frustrating. It gives me a lot less motivation, too! Maybe summer classes will allow me to finish in December..that'd be nice!

Start up.

I haven't written in my blog since summer, but I may start again. Who knows?! But right now, I thought about it, so I'm doing it. I really don't want to admit that I am the bitter hater of Valentine's Day, but today, I am! I know if I had that "special someone" (or whatever the fuck you'd wanna call the person I'd pretend to love so that I could just have sex all the time) then I probably wouldn't be writing this blog..no, I definitely wouldn't be..it's vday, and I'd be getting laid! But alas, I am not. And that makes me sad. Because right now, I know everyone else in the world is, and that's a sad feeling. Who am I kidding?! Writing this out makes me realize how stupid I sound. But it does kinda suck not having a Valentine...tomorrow I'll be fine haha

Different.

So, I've been working for about 3 weeks so far, and man is it different from last year. I jumped right into LOD (leader on duty) shifts within the first week. It was difficult...not even knowing the team and having to be their go-to person if something went wrong, they needed something, or needed to be told what to do. It's definitely a lot more challenging, but it's getting much better. The team is much different from last summer's, but not in a bad way. It's just different. I'm really growing this summer in a professional sense. There's a lot more that goes into being an executive than is expected. Whether this is what I wanna do for my future, I don't know. It's very draining. It's a lot of work, and very demanding. But, someone's gotta do it. They will definitely offer me something that will be great right out of college. It's a lot to think about. I'm pretty sure they want me..but do I want them?? It's a lot to assess this summer and next. We shall see.

Real World.

I guess it's back to the real world for me. Kind of bitter sweet. I'm excited to be back at Target and making the big bucks, but I'm sad that my summer is pretty much over. I've had a lot of fun the past few weeks, but I guess it's time to start being an adult again..bummer! You know, these are the last few years that I will actually get a summer vacation, so I want to enjoy it the best that I can..but I guess I have to realize that this internship will benefit me in the long run as well! Ah well, my summer restarts as of around August 10th. Just in time for my 21st! I guess I can deal with that!